wrong foot

uh, when i started this thing, I was going to do some..."what i did last year greatest hits" kinda thing or listed books i read or what movies i saw over the last year...like some backround info about my personal media inputs and outlets....then I thought that would be like myspace or facebook...but I can see how fruitful blogs can be using the meathod of mass organizational thoughts and opinions found or shaped into interweaving sects of shadow mob rules ..plus it's an easy way to start a blog...some people talk only about one thing in a blog for years it seems...I dunno if I wanna get too deep into the quo ya know...just want to talk about my day and so forth. Things are pretty 'good life' right now in the basement with beer. suppost to have some friends over tonight... some talked of a naked hang....yea, life is good, but this is boring cuz being almost 3:00am not much has happened today..I'm alone ..and drinking...it's not depressing ..it is what it is.....it might be better if i do this sorta thing the morning after or late in the day of the day i want to concentrate on. but just now i did get some funny pics from the skating rink show we did on halloween from a person i know took.

ya, i see this shit and i know my kids are not going to have any morsel of a normal life with their father...i tell them these people above are their "uncle mike" or "uncle chris" or "uncle thomas" and so on...and they are all loving people to my kids...how to explain for the first time. I Know in time Quen will look forward to hanging with us and and getting all excited about daddy's show with her uncle jason.....ya know that uncle you have...the hairy one..or the smelly one...or the scratchy one....or the "fun" one...whatever...what if a weiner falls out..what do you do...oh, I'm sure most would say clear her away from this stuff from even happening....but then why is there not a weiner there in the first place...it's not sexy or graphic really in context...nudity should not be shameful...in this case no one is alone with anyone naked...there are maybe 20, 50, 100 people standing around..out of those people you thank any well adjusted person would let something really get fucked up...not really...it's art...it's a nice wall...but alas, no matter what I do she will grow older and undrstand what we have been doing anyway...but I do hope she will be excited about music...i just want it not to be creepy for her...

anyway, this is no way to start a blog...

Gunna Try to do this....

Hello Friends, Acquaintances, Sorta-know Yas, Comrades, Select Family Members, Select Ex-Lovers, Band Colleges, Those Who I Keep Forgetting Your Names, Those Who Forget My Name, And Other Curiosity Voyeurs....

I'm Turning 38 Tomorrow and I decided for everyday of my 38th year I'll keep a daily blog. I Found that I don't get out as much since the birth of my 2nd daughter Quenby along with a deal I worked out with my wife Michelle of getting out once a week..which I usually spend with my friends in my band skarekrauradio. So those not in my band don't see me much at all unless they goto my shows or come by my house in Collinsville IL which is located about 10 miles east of St. Louis and 10 miles north of Belleville IL (the 2 locations where a majority of my friends reside). I noticed that when I do actually see all of you I felt a bit of disconnections like friends you were tight with in high school but when you meet up again, you are afraid you might say the wrong thing. Also I have friends all over the country who I never see. Because I want to stay in touch with as many people as possible because I am a believer that those around you help mold the person you are...I know that sounds hippy, but think of what you think is funny might be funny to your friends but not funny to anyone else...that is what I'm talking about...I think it's not just humor. Of course there are other things like media, politics, and other outside forces that mold one's thought systems...but real human contact is basically the most influential...even if you don't know the person that well. This all said, in the age of Internet we have blogs, so I thought that if I can't see all of you as much as I would like I felt you can read my blogs and keep up with my happenings...so when we do hang, we might have something to talk about other than the weather. I will not fade in memory as much I think if you know what I'm doing. I will talk about what I did or what I seen and my opinions of all that and other crap. please comment as much as ya like or not at all. I'm gunna try to post something everyday...some days might be real short or if there is nothing on a day it's because I'm too sick or away from the house or a computer....but when that happens I'll fill in the gaps....